Zara's Jumper ~ Cotton On's Bag ~ HM's Kicks
Here I am writing a post before closing my 2015, I'm so sorry for being MIA in blogging but I don't know guys, I want to write a lot of things here but sometimes I just fear what I want to say doesn't seems to interest you all. But anyway I will change that perspective of mine on 2016 (one of my new year's resolution I guess lol) because the more I think about it, this is my blog and I want to be real because this is #TheSwaggieUnicorn not anyone else eh?
Btw, welcoming 2016 I don't have any resolutions. Why you ask? Because I fear I might get too stress by following or sticking to the resolutions. Like earlier this year I made a resolution that I have to study harder and not failing any classes but it ended up making me like a robot in negative ways. Like I always study that I forgot how to have fun, it's been programmed to me like a rigid robot. During the midterms, I got bad score and I ended up being stress and I (almost) gave up on life as well, sounded cliche but that's what I get from the pressure of being perfect. I fear that everything I do or did will never be good enough and I will ended up disappointing a lot of people I love. I fear that when I disappoint people they will leave me. So the core of my fear is fear of being alone and failing. It's weird. I fear of being alone but when a lot of people put their attention of me it gives me this weird anxiety feeling. I don't even know if this is normal but just letting you know one fact about me that I never share with anyone. Since this is my last post of 2k15, I'm being very honest right now :))
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